Being single for life?! Really?!

Hey guys!
So, this is what happened last weekend. My dear friend (shall remain nameless) asked me when will I get married... After graduate? 30? Or upper 35? Then I had this instant answer, saying 'Never will be'.

I don't know 'bout this, maybe I am not ready at all, or maybe it's not time! But one thing I knew for sure, that being single is the BEST DAMN THING EVER! I just think that I have a purpose in life, that is not for my own sake, but for the people around me. I don't think it's about how ready I am or not, or I have to have that level of maturity for this. But trust me, I just wanna serve. Being single is a calling, not only marriage or priesthood calling. If I am meant to be single for life, so be it. But just so you know, I am happy. So I am just hoping that God calls me into the live of chastity, to love and to serve everyone, equally.

1 Corinthians 7:8 

To the unmarried and the widows I say that it is good for them to remain single as I am.















Good day y'all!

Kaamatan!!! It's ON baby!!!

 Hey guys!
There are good and bad news. The bad news is my exam is coming soon.. (soob2).. But Kaamatan Festival is just around the corner! Yay!

So here's what I think. After my examination for this semester, I am rewarding myself for a personal journey to anywhere I want, but still around Sabah. I want to go to a place where I want have pack of amazing moments and to experience Kaamatan there. I love being in kampung, and living with the kampung people would be great pleasure for me. I do have few places in mind right now.
1. Keningau
2. Sook
3. Telupid
4. Kota Marudu/Belud
5. Tambunan

Well, I haven't decided yet which place I should go. But 1 thing for sure, wherever I go, the Kaamatan spirit will still be the same, no exception.


For this year's Kaamatan, let us give thanks to God for all His kindness and blessing toward us, and moginum to the fullest! Lolz

Have a great Kaamatan festival for this year, and remember, don't drink and drive. (^_^)
God bless.

What's next?

 Have you had that moment when you just wanna go somewhere else and feel free? Well' I had.

This one particular night when I was in dilemma, I couldn't help myself but cry. It was midnight. i can't sleep, neither eat. I was so emotional at that time, and felt like my world is just falling apart. I tried to pray, but it didn't seem to work. 

I stayed awake, and until I noticed the sun began to rise, I went out. I went on the roof, and was about to witness the sunrise. And when it did rise, I was like 'Hell yeah!' My confident just got up! It felt so amazing. 'Till now, I still do this. Not everyday thou, but just when I feel there's no hope for tomorrow.

Now I wonder, what's next for me? But 1 thing I know for sure, LIFE! I do feel alone sometimes. Not just simply because I am physically
alone, but because I think that I'm different. But when I watch the sunrise, I realize that everybody will just have the same sunrise, but the different is I witnessed it, while they're sleeping.

And tonight, I gotta do it again. 

Glee!

Hey guess what? I'm a biggest fan of Glee, and I am also a Gleek! Everything about Glee is so amazing. The drama, the mash-ups, the cast, what more can you get? Season 3 is the best season ever! 
I watched episode 17 last Sunday. Despite all the hardwork and effort they put into their performance, they manage to pay tribute to Whitney Houston, who died last February, by singing all of her songs, but not just the singing that impresses me, the arrangements of the songs were so amazing. 


I'm really looking forward for the next episode. Hopefully they have a shot of winning at National. Fingers cross!

Dreaming of a home studio..

My ultimate dream-----> Home studio!

Oh my, if only I could have a perfect home studio set, with the microphone, speaker, interface audio, and everything I could ever wish for. Not impossible! I just have to have two things right now, the Interface audio+microphone. Worth? rm600++. Hur, well, have to wait I guess. After this come true, I will make more songs cover.

Well, Some of you might ask, why home studio?
Let me tell you all! By having this bloody thing, non-stop audio recording yoo! (If only you love music lah). Plus, easy and very effective for a starter like me (on my way for that). Finally, becoming popular by posting your video in Facebook or Youtube, or your blog, or anywhere you can post (Asalkan bukan di wall FB sa sudah lah, kompom sa padam..)

So for those who have the same desire as mine, have faith. For you and I will achieve this one day. Usaha tangga kejayaan! (Macam besukan ja tu =_=) Anyway, goodluck for us.

God bless the broken Road, cover by ME!

Hey guys! So check this out. I found this video of me, singing God bless the broken road by Rascal Flatts. I totally love country music, such like Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood, Brad Paisley, etc. I performed this song for 10+ audiences only. Not as good as it should be, but the lyrics really captures me 'till now. It's been a year... what a memory... Well, enjoy. (^_^)

a Relationship

Relationship. What is that? How to define it? Where can I find the 'person' who is really for a relationship with me?

All these things is going through my mind, for almost a week now. I begin to imagine what life would be for having a 'perfect relationship'.

I had a crush on many people for the past years. Talking about crush, I have it on someone, still. I don't know why. Maybe that person is just my type, or I am too desperate. But little do I know, I can't force myself into a relationship with someone that I barely know.

For I know, a relationship is not, and never a mistake. But I do consider this as a learning process.


I've never considered myself as a lover, 'till I began love someone. But there have been already a lot that I've loved before. But.. yeah, lovers come and go just like that.(T_T) As for me, a true relationship is when you have that chemistry that bonds you and the other together. But how long does it take 'till it falls apart?

I learn something new today, and that is to love yourself, before you can truly love someone completely. If it doesn't work, then what the hell? Break up! It's not worth living in a lie and in confusion. Being in a relationship is not about showing off, or to have credit from anyone, especially wanting your friends to admire you. It's about being truthful, pure, and most importantly, to love like you've never loved anyone before.

That's all for today. Take a time for yourself before you can step into a new path in your life, being into a relationship. it might help you (^_^)

Peace, God bless.