Being single for life?! Really?!

Hey guys!
So, this is what happened last weekend. My dear friend (shall remain nameless) asked me when will I get married... After graduate? 30? Or upper 35? Then I had this instant answer, saying 'Never will be'.

I don't know 'bout this, maybe I am not ready at all, or maybe it's not time! But one thing I knew for sure, that being single is the BEST DAMN THING EVER! I just think that I have a purpose in life, that is not for my own sake, but for the people around me. I don't think it's about how ready I am or not, or I have to have that level of maturity for this. But trust me, I just wanna serve. Being single is a calling, not only marriage or priesthood calling. If I am meant to be single for life, so be it. But just so you know, I am happy. So I am just hoping that God calls me into the live of chastity, to love and to serve everyone, equally.

1 Corinthians 7:8 

To the unmarried and the widows I say that it is good for them to remain single as I am.















Good day y'all!

Kaamatan!!! It's ON baby!!!

 Hey guys!
There are good and bad news. The bad news is my exam is coming soon.. (soob2).. But Kaamatan Festival is just around the corner! Yay!

So here's what I think. After my examination for this semester, I am rewarding myself for a personal journey to anywhere I want, but still around Sabah. I want to go to a place where I want have pack of amazing moments and to experience Kaamatan there. I love being in kampung, and living with the kampung people would be great pleasure for me. I do have few places in mind right now.
1. Keningau
2. Sook
3. Telupid
4. Kota Marudu/Belud
5. Tambunan

Well, I haven't decided yet which place I should go. But 1 thing for sure, wherever I go, the Kaamatan spirit will still be the same, no exception.


For this year's Kaamatan, let us give thanks to God for all His kindness and blessing toward us, and moginum to the fullest! Lolz

Have a great Kaamatan festival for this year, and remember, don't drink and drive. (^_^)
God bless.

What's next?

 Have you had that moment when you just wanna go somewhere else and feel free? Well' I had.

This one particular night when I was in dilemma, I couldn't help myself but cry. It was midnight. i can't sleep, neither eat. I was so emotional at that time, and felt like my world is just falling apart. I tried to pray, but it didn't seem to work. 

I stayed awake, and until I noticed the sun began to rise, I went out. I went on the roof, and was about to witness the sunrise. And when it did rise, I was like 'Hell yeah!' My confident just got up! It felt so amazing. 'Till now, I still do this. Not everyday thou, but just when I feel there's no hope for tomorrow.

Now I wonder, what's next for me? But 1 thing I know for sure, LIFE! I do feel alone sometimes. Not just simply because I am physically
alone, but because I think that I'm different. But when I watch the sunrise, I realize that everybody will just have the same sunrise, but the different is I witnessed it, while they're sleeping.

And tonight, I gotta do it again.